Rainy days.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007 4:00 PM
Rainy days.
It somehow fits my current mood.
My whole current status mood never changed,
Even if i seem smiling & laughing.
There's something missing there.
How can i please everyone at the same time?
How am i supposed to do that and please myself?
Put their feelings aside.
When it comes to love,
love yourself first.
Sometimes,
i wonder to myself.
It's always my fault,well at least.
But,have you ever try & think?
That what you have done?
& things that you did,
that i always forgive.
& all i got was the losing end.
Don't tell me who i am.
Because unless i write all my thoughts down,
on a piece of paper and hand it to you,
you dont even know half my life.
I don't know why.
I keep crying to myself.
I see reflections of a different person.
Let say,this morning.
It was not you,on the reflection of the mirror.
It was him.
I know,it seems wrong.
It's been a year plus,now.
Why? Why am i still guilty?
Don't tell me i chose wrongly?
No,don't tell me that.
It's him,which i love.
I know. But,whyy?
I don't need you to understand.
Even if i want you to.
But,still. I need space.
I need some air to breathe.
I wish i was never in reality.
Please,take me back to fantasy.
loveee;
EFF.
Rainy days.
