If it's true,can i go?
Tuesday, September 25, 2007 11:00 AM
"Ilove you,"
is the promise,
people fail to keep most.
GOOD MORNINNGGGG!
Yes yes,it's one of my off days today. (:
Here i am resting at home.
Before i start working till sunday.
& finally,the end of misery!
HAHAHAHAHA.
What is it,you say?
Neh neh neh neh! =p
Something so strong,
shouldn't make me this weak.
There was a knife,beside me yesterday.
If i haven't think of my little baby brother,
my siblings,my friends & mostly,you.
I swear,i would have kill myself last night.
Call me insane,yes. You took that sanity away.
Stop driving me mad.
Stop giving me heartaches.
I gave in,all this while.
4 am in the morning,
i was crying when i was eating my sahur alone.
Lies,you say?
Mum & sister was having menses.
Dad had sahor earlier.
All thanks to who?
No,not to you.
You can put the blame on me.
I feel as if i'm in a room screaming,
and no one even looks up.
Did you know?
That i cried my heart out,last night?!
Yes,you received my msg.
& i know you won't even care if i'm dead.
Will you,will you care?
You promised to be there,
but where were you?
You promised to take care of me,
but look what have become of me,now?
11 am,
you are awake & is at work.
Have you tried to call & ask?
Did you try to msg me?
No,not even a call nor a msg.
All you care about is yourself!
& you never did cared about me.
1 year plus have past.
& this is what you gave me?
THANKS!
Don't threaten me,
with what you think i feel.
Hell, if you could read my mind,
you'd be in tears right now.
Don't blame me,
if i ever become really insane,one day.
Then,you'll be happier.
Don't blame me,
if i ever really turn to suicidal.
One fine day.
Nobody knew i was hurting.
When they ask,
"Yes,i'm fine. With a smile. (:"
But,"No,i wish you knew that i'm dying."
Ya allah,
you always give me guidance.
Guide me on this last one.
muchh lovee;
EFF.
"Ilove you," 
