My only one.
Thursday, October 11, 2007 1:36 PM
For him, I'd smile when he's happy, kiss him when he's sad,
try to be the perfect girl and calm him when he's mad.
Hold his hand to make him strong,
and say he's right when I know he's wrong.
It's officially the second last day of fasting.
Sheeeshhh! 1 more day to end it all.
& guess what?!!
APEEEEE??!!
TOMORROW MALAM RAYEEEE!!
Jyeaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Nak main bunge api! Yeaahhh2!
HAHAHAHA.
I am coming to terms with the fact that loving someone requires a leap of faith,
and that a soft landing is never guaranteed.
Here i am,
it's started to pour outside.
Somehow,the feeling strucked me.
The feeling of insecurity.
& with me,having the lowest confidence of all.
I'm feeling down again. =/
You always disappoint me.
It's kind of like our inside joke,
except it's not funny.
Somehow,when i go for Hari Raya visits.
Expecially the firstt dayy,at granny's house.
I want them to tell me at least once,
a good compliment about me.
Instead of hearing the same thing.
"Effahh da makin "BESAR" eh skrgg."
"Effahh! Gemuknye kau!!"
"Effahh. Ape jadiii?"
& then,they will all go laughing.
I smiled & laughed.
It hurts,deep inside. They never know.
Well,i shed alot of weight this time round.
& i hope they can see. Unless if they're blind uh!
Because,it fcuking affect my body system!
Pains & more pains at night.
Pffttttttt.
Trust me, I know how it feels.
I know exactly how it feels to crying the shower so no one can hear you.
I know what it's like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart,
for everything to hurt so bad,
you just want it all to end.
I know exactly how it feels.
HARI RAYEEEEEE!
I'm actually feeling the heat!
Because mum has bought kueh!
Haaaaa,random schit! I knoww.
& the thought of geylang on malam raye!
Confirmm kecoohhh!
Heeeeeeeeeee. (:
muchh lovee;
EFF.
For him, I'd smile when he's happy, kiss him when he's sad,
