Worn out.
Monday, April 14, 2008 10:49 PM
It's another month,a new beginning.
And 21 months have passed by us without a trace.
Still,the feeling has stayed the same.
Another month,another chapter down.
HAPPY 21ST,SAYANG.
I know that times are bad for us due to being far away.
And the amount of load you had to carry from the trainings.
Till now,I'm never more happier than I'm with you.
I hope this will stay the same in the future to come.
Life isn't measured by the number of breaths we take,
but, by the moments that take our breaths away.
I'm feeling exceptionally low on a very special day.
2 more days to my 19th birthday and I'm not the least looking forward.
Maybe,it's the fever,cold and cough that I've been infected with.
Or maybe,the days are without him by my side.
Or just,just maybe,he had to add to the pain that I've been carrying.
I tried to be strong. I tried to stay cool to not give away.
But,my puffy red eyes have been telling people that I'm crying.
My damn horrible endless cough have been giving people ideas that I'm sick.
The tone of my sore voice,the almost knock out me at work.
Tell me now,just something.. What do you feel?
Andddd,to add it all.
The blood that I've coughed out during dinner just now,
made everything all else worst.
He told me to not look for him anymore.
Not even when he booked out,say in 4 more days?
Don't worry,I won't look for you even if it kills me.
We've hurt each other enough. I'm sorry,love.
Now,tell me something that i need to hear.
I'm shagged,knackered from all the workload.
7.30 am till 9.30 pm. Stock take day.
Damn tiring,damn the back ache and damn everything.
I surely need some sleep.
muchh loveeee;
EFF.
It's another month,a new beginning.
