it takes a lot.
Sunday, August 24, 2008 11:07 PM
You never get over it, but you get
to where it doesn't bother you so much.
there comes a time in your life,where you feel like giving up.
and in mine,there is this time. where i feel nothing but pain.
a pain that has been there for years,been bruised again and again.
it's time i really let myself find the pain and let go of it completely.
but letting go of it means getting happiness away from me.
but that will be my choice,happiness.
i know i can never be someone you want,as a friend,as a girlfriend,
as a soulmate,as a bestfriend. to people,eff is just plain stupid.
effah's never there for anyone,self centered bitch. pain in the ass.
someone you can never rely on,not from time to time.
words just keep coming to me,hurling itself and finding it's way to the brain.
sad,even someone i love so dearly thinks that way of me.
so,tell me how do i survive?
It may have been in bits and pieces,
but I gave you the best of me.
i may never have been the best,
but i always tried to be the best for everyone.
a friend,a girlfriend,a bestfriend,a confidante,listening ears..
but sad,all goes to waste. i'm useless even to my ex-boyfriend.
years,i've been fighting feelings like this. but no,it still came.
useless. self centered. unreliable. stupid. that's me..
it's sad how i want to choose this path..
but i'm glad that finally,i want to be able to walk through.
it will be very hard and no one would be there for me...
but i shall go through this alone,to succeed and be someone.
because,i am who i am. with or without you,dear one.
may you find happiness in someone else.
hope she show you the light of happiness i've never shown.
i'm always here,praying and waiting.
In the short time we spent together,
we had what most people can only dream about,
& I`m counting the days until I can see you again.
Never forget how much I love you.
loveeee;
efffff.
You never get over it, but you get
