just neglected.
Thursday, August 14, 2008 9:54 PM
To forget someone isn't possible;
deep inside, you remember everything.
You may not think of them for years at a time,
but you don't know how to forget.
You can recall the way they smiled when they were happy,
and the way their faces showed no expression,
when they couldn't find their way.
suddenly,i had flashbacks.
bad flashbacks,funny moments,silly and stupid.
love,hate and everything nice altogether....
oh god,why now? of all the times?! all fcuking time!
i miss two idiots who love to fight among themselves and make a fool.
who never failed to put a silly smile on my face even when i'm angry.
i miss that idiot,my bestfriend who always makes me laugh.
even when i fought with him,he was always there. but where is he now?
i miss these people who i always look forward to see in school...
the people i belong to,like a second home. who never fails to understand.
no matter in what situation,they are always there supporting behind me.
and there's these people whom i have close in my heart...
the ones i can call a family,a whole big lot of them together.
of whom i always don't mind rushing to work to,covering for them.
of whom i never feel shy to share anything about,to joke around...
and there's always silly outings we all love to have,hari raya and all.
with them around,though how silly or stupid,there's never ending laughters.
be it stupid,be it dumb,i love having them around. having their accompany..
but where the hell is everyone?!
then there's kakak,the one who always understands me.
who never fails to be there even when she herself,is out of sorts.
the kind of friend you never want to throw away. not in a million times.
then there's the two favourite couple of mine,who are always silly in their way.
with them around,nothing can make you feel bored or unhappy.
they,can shine your life. bring you utmost happiness like no other.
then there's the guys,who always have their way of disturbing you..
who always and always will make you laugh your ass of with their antics...
the one who makes you cry and laugh and next minute,
they're worried that their actions hurt you deep inside...
and there's abang boboi,who is always there for me.
name the time and place,he be there in a flash. my ex-manager,a brother within.
my favourite baby girls who always have time for me...
the ones you can rely on,day through night. they listen,they are there.
of whom always catch your back through hard and easy times.
of whom i miss so dearly that i need a hug from each of them!
i miss having times like those which i left out in the past life.
the times where nothing matters when they are around...
not even any guy can appeal to me! just playing and flirting matters..
but it all comes to an end. everyone of them is missing in their own world.
i wish,with all my might for times like this to be here again. i need them.
just so you know,they are my world. my life. once. sigh.
and sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere,
all of the sudden this overwhelming saddness reaches over me.
and i get discouraged, and i get upset,
and i feel hopeless, sad, and hurt,
and once again i become numb to the world.
loveeeee;
effffffff.
To forget someone isn't possible; 
