memory of a song.
Thursday, September 11, 2008 10:53 PM
Life kicks you around sometimes.
It scares you and it beats you up.
But there's one day when you realize you're not just a survivor,
you're a fighter. And you're tougher than anything life throws your way.
my thursday was damn crappy. menses!!!!! fuck little miss red.
guess i spoke too soon,huh? there goes my 11th day of puasa. )):
sigh. no wonder my anger was at it's peak today. damn cranky!
i think i need anger management classes,they're right.
the feelings get the better of me,today. feel like stabbing myself!
if only you sit down and look and analyze what you have done,
you will see for yourself.. that i'm not the one you knew.
not the one you used to love when you wake up in the morning.
not the one who can tolerate any more of your doings to me..
because as each day passes,i slowly go insane and nothing stops.
do you know why? no,because you keep blaming me for everything.
So whisper and tell me where I went wrong.
Tell me why everything around you lost it's shine.
Why nothing glows...?
if there's no hope in this,tell me.. i'll go when i'm not needed.
because trying to make this work,is taking its toll on me.
it's draining out the energy,the life out of me. guess it's always right,huh?
each day,i tried to be perfect for you.. but i have never had been.
i can never be the girl that you used to love,the one for you.
my heart breaks. no,it has shattered to bloody pieces already.
after what you have said,i decided. i made my decision.
and after all,i can never be ____. go figure. only you decide that..
your words,they don't melt my heart no more. doesn't soften up.
don't wanna go,don't wanna leave.. so,where do i go from here?
I can't escape all the things we said.
I'm taking years off my life with the weight of regret.
Now there's nothing left. There is nothing left to lose.
lovee;
efff.
Life kicks you around sometimes. 
