unreachable.
Monday, September 29, 2008 11:19 PM
Nothing's changed between you and me.
I guess we're exactly how we're meant to be.
As much as it hurts,it's okay.
I'm still the way that I've always been,just another friend.
And you, you're still the one and you've always been.
But I think I came a little too late,and I can't cheat fate.
my monday was sucky. i hate mondays! monday blues. )):
and today,was the set up of the atrium fair at basement! tired.
but unfortunately,i am on medication and unable to fast.
now,i am at home feeling the worst that i have ever felt.
i wish i never cared. i wish i had no feelings.
somehow,some things in life.. you just cannot let go of.
like old feelings,friendships and whatnots of the yesterdays..
you find yourself looking back to them and feel safe,somehow.
and that my friends,is what i am feeling exactly. it's complicating..
for now,i see that the future gives me nothing but pain.
i know,i complain too much about life and this and that.
yes,i have to learn to accept life is unfair and never easy..
but sometimes,you can't simply judge someone just because we said it.
sometimes,you just gotta put yourself in someone's else shoes.
I felt so embarrassed and torn up inside,
but no one seemed to think a second thought.
So I just kept trying to pretend that I felt fine.
on a lighter note,tomorrow is MALAM RAYE!!!
it's the eve of hari raya already babies!! yayyyyy!
even how,i'm looking forward to it no matter what.
ain't no man or bitches gonna bring down my spirit for raya. (:
1 more day left all! and it's the end of a very holy month.
it's like lifting a very heavy rock that's attach to my body,you know?
it is that heavy. it hurts that much. bet you didn't notice even,do you?
because all you do is keep hurting me and none you say is sincere.
look into yourself and understand why i am reacting the way i am..
cos now,i understand the meaning to this and also,you.
it will hurt to say goodbye.. but i gotta go this time.
I want to believe you. I really do.
But it's so hard to do that because nothing you say is true.
lovee;
efff.
Nothing's changed between you and me.
