nothing else but you.
Friday, October 31, 2008 2:01 PM
Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom and hurting the ones you love,
to realize what you have become is not what you planned,
and who you are is not who you like.
it's friday,and am i so not looking forward to the weekends. sigh!
both days are full on shift. the boy's off days on both days... double sigh!
and he will be back to camp on monday. triple sigh. )))):
after the whole 2 months,i'm still not used to the boy not being around.
it's like dejavu all over again.
but on a brighter note,i am looking forward to next month. *hint-hint*
and guess what? i am down with a fever... right. thanks ehhhhhhhhh...
and i officially declared myself the stupidiest and most clumsy yesterday!!!
first,i forgotten to bring my bloody precious hp to workkkkkkk!!
and then at 8.30 pm,NOTE EH. 8.30 pm when i look at the roster,
THEN DID I REALIZED I WAS FUCKING ON AFTERNOON SHIFT!!!! best peee?!
i came in as usual,being me. being stupid and being stupid. tssskkkkkkkkkk!
There was always a second side to everything,
but the bright lights usually outshines the truth.
i will truly,really miss the boy when he goes back to camp on monday.
will miss the cuddling sessions,the scenes where he would make fun of me,
and then take me back into his big arms,where i always,always feel safe.
i will miss him laughing at me when i'm clumsy and do something stupid.
and what i will miss most is,how he make me feel the whole lot of time i'm with him.
3 weeks is gonna go fast,dear boy. and thank god is not that whole 3 months.
though i'm sorry i said that,i wish you got what you wanted. but,it's all good right?
just remember,i am still here waiting and i will always love you.
Because this is what happens when you try to run from the past.
It just doesn't catch up, it overtakes … blotting out the future.
lovee;
efff.
Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom and hurting the ones you love,
i will truly,really miss the boy when he goes back to camp on monday.
