emotionally drained.
Saturday, January 17, 2009 12:41 PM
Disciplining yourself to do what is right and important,
although difficult, is the high road to pride,
self-esteem, and personal satisfaction.
it's a saturday and i am off. though,i know it's a fucking saturday!
no no,i am not mad. just not bothered to go out. too tired.
plus,i am emotionally unstable,emotionally disturbed. sigh.
i am now so fucking drained that i feel that i can't do anything!!
i feel so so so so fucking tired and lazy,you know? i don't know why?
it's not i have been doing any vigorous exercise or anything! tssk.
i don't know where i'll be going today as i am broke & so is everyone..
i am too tired to even dress up or put on any make up. seems tiring,huh?
i guess,visiting the good friend at nuh is a good thing to do later.. we'll see.
he have been transferred to a regular ward,alhamdullilah.
But what's real? You can't find the truth,
so you pick the lie you like the best.
i think,looking at edward cullen,chuck bass,cristiano ronaldo,
or even chace crawford doesn't really help to what i am feeling..
i think,i feel sore to everything that ever had happened.
so why,do i still feel this way? even more pain,then? why dear god?
and to add to it all,the one least person i want to see,
keeps giving me hints and more hinting to what he felt.
stop it,stop it just right there. i really had enough,you know?
in times like this,the one person i ever really need,is never there.
or maybe,has changed to being another human being that's not him.
the one sane human who can listen to me,comfort me & make everything..
but no,he refuses. he insist on being a jerk & keep playing with my mind.
please,mrgreenviceroy. the least person i need now to be a jerk,is you.
sigh.
"Maybe death is the great equalizer,
the one big thing that can finally make strangers,
shed a tear for one another."
Disciplining yourself to do what is right and important,
