before we say goodbye.

do and don't.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009 11:09 PM

we spend our whole lives searching for all the things we think we want,
and never really knowing what we have.

it's almost the end of a wednesday and sigh. why am i sighing,aniway?
but ANIWAYS,work was hell. as usual,stocks keep coming in like mad.
then again,what's new eh? everything's same old,same old.
i really,really,really need a break from everything.
like again,what's new with me & breaks? goddamn it.
everyone needs a fucking break,every now & then,don't they?

i'm searching for answers,fucking answers to the ridiculous riddles,
of which contains my goddamn life & everything in it all together..
god,you're not playing a joke on me right? because,i know you won't.
if it's meant to be a joke,i am that fucking joke!!!!!!

life is one big road with lots of signs.
so when you're riding through ruts, don't complicate your mind.
flee from hate, mischief and jealousy.
don't bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality,wake up and live.

i think,sometimes i need to control my emotions.
my emotions always gets in my fucking way,destroying my feelings.
yes,i get so hurt easily,get angry easily & fucking cry so damn easy too!
even the tiniest little thing can trigger my mood and i get angry!!
yes,i am that bad when it comes to emotional intelligence.
i think,my eq is very,very,very bad. sigh.

i always question myself,my life and it's very existence.
i don't appreciate life,i diss life. i spat & cursed at it.
what i don't see is the smaller picture to the bigger ones...
i have a blessed life,even with it's setback. i have a family.
i have a perfect life,just imperfect. i have,at least a life.
how many people would kill to have a life? you do understand,right?
sigh.

so fail. be bad at things, be embarrassed, be afraid.
be vulnerable. go out on a limb or two,
or twelve and you will fall and it will hurt.
but the harder you fall, the farther you will rise.
the louder you fail, the clearer your future becomes.