the last battle.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009 9:56 AM
Here's my philosophy on dating.
It's important to have somebody that can make you laugh,
somebody you can trust, somebody that, you know, turns you on.
And it's really, really important that,
these three people don't know each other.
the last 2 days of 2009,that,unfortunately,i have been dreading much..
it means the end of another year,the beginning of an au courant. 2010.
time always past by us like a current that flows through a river,
without us realizing,sometimes,it could create a majestic disaster,like floods.
and how is that theory similar to a fresh start of a brand new year?
we never realize it until it hits us until the very end.
and what have i been doing these past few,most probably the last of 2009?
i have been filling myself up with memories,it's like a representation to what,
i used to be,to whom i used to have in my life,and to what i have achieved.
some things you did which you're never proud of,ones you wish you could mend,
but hey,that's life for you.. if you never fall,you'll never learn from the downfall.
The fact that you cannot kiss your elbow is enough,
to make you realize that some things seem to be so close,
yet they are bound to be beyond your reach.
but i may whine and rave about how the year's have gone past by us,
i am thankful for one thing until now,that i am still alive,still breathing..
thankful that god has yet gave me another day to see the world,to live.
i'm gratified to him that he stills give me until today to start fresh,move on.
because,without him,we will never really be here in the first place.
everything has taught me that life is indeed precious & you should be grateful.
as i go on with life,living my everyday,things may sometime take a turn...
you hear about deaths,deaths of friends,family members,even celebrities.
and then you think hard,you get caught by the moment.. life is short.
you'll never know when he decided to take your life away,whether momentarily,
or either way,he can lift up your life from you,any second,when he has to.
and till now,i am still learning to live life as though there's no tomorrow.
The bad thing about falling to pieces is that it hurts.
The good thing about it is that once you're lying there in shards,
you've got nothing left to protect, and so you have no reason not to be honest.
and so,here's to 2009,who have eventually,taught me little bits pieces of life.
who yet again,may have disappoint me in a way,but i was never happier..
thank you,2009. you have been a great year & i'm finally ready,to let go.
to let go of the memories i had with you,of the things i used to have,back then.
to you,for catechizing me the rules of life,falling down & getting up again,
for the times i never treasured life,for the times i feel that life's unfair..
no matter how,no matter what,life would always be unfair & we'll have to learn.
if life is full of fairness,we'll never learn the little bits & pieces of life..
if life isn't tough,we won't be strong enough to withstand pain & cruelty of life.
as weird as it may sound,i'm still learning too,still giving myself some time.
like the americans say,"cut yourself some slack" thank you,life.
To need someone more than you want is insecurity.
To want someone more than you need them is lust.
Love is when you need and want someone in your life in equal amounts.
Here's my philosophy on dating.
