before we say goodbye.

the meaning.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009 3:37 PM

I want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive or the short walk,
the last voice, the random call, the sweet dream, the perfect kiss,
the comfort hug, the sparkle in your eye,
the everything you need, just what you want. I want to be yours.

it's 2nd of December and i'm reeling! tonight's the night. har har har.
yeah right,so much for excited.. i'm more nervous that reeling it in. tsk!
i have been listening to bsb since just now. my god. so much fond memories..
right now,all i need is dosage of memories,happy thoughts & the past.
not the past as in past. but you know,happy happy times.. sigh.

i miss school. i miss me. i miss being thin. i miss being free.
i went through the thousands of pictures on my desktop,yesterday..
it brought me back to the times where i was still in school,pizzahut & such.
if only i could turn back time,i would go back and relive all those moments.
nothing,nothing can ever take all those memories away.

I guess a big part of growing up is dealing with regret.Swallowing your pride.
There are some things in life you can't go back & change,
no matter how much you want to.
I think that day I was finally forced to grow up,
to leave the past behind, for one final time.

my bags are packed,sort of. jeez. i don't know what to bring. HAHA.
hope there's wireless connection at Cameron highlands or i'll cry. ))):
well,after that would be perak,pulau pangkor i think? i really don't know.
hahaha. sometimes i wish someone would just take me to new york already!!
these few days,i keep looking up the apartments there,& boy,expensive!!

but no matter,no matter,i shall keep on believing and i'll reach there,somehow.
i'll be back on the 8th,insyallah. safely in singapore. just pray for my well being. (:
hopefully,*cross fingers*,i would be online in msn,facebook or updating. hehehe.
that is,if there's wireless connection in malaysia. *ROLLS EYES*
miss me when i'm gone? xoxo.

Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone;
and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come.
Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.