show me the meaning.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009 8:29 PM
There are so many people out there who will tell you that you can't.
It's your job to turn round and say “watch me”.
i'm currently listening to backstreet boys! heee haww! they're coming here! (:
i have always loved bsb and what do you expect when i grew up with their songs.
and i will never get bored with them,whatever people wanna say bout them..
lol yeah! they're coming & there's always an issue with the money. damn.
muse coming,paramore is coming and all the great bands! goddamnit!!
i'm so obsessed with snow,i think? or more like obsessed with the states. lol.
new york,more like it. it is morning now,there & snowing & 3 bloody degrees celcius.
jeez. what's more,it's almost christmas eve tomorrow but i don't feel it. )):
this year,not only am i spending christmas alone,new year's too. sigh sigh.
i am the most loneliest idiot geek ever & i don't want it to be like that!!!
how you spend your new year's eve,is how your whole year will look like.
and somehow,i have tested that theory for almost 2 years now. =/
Love means holding on to someone just as hard,
as you can because if you don't,
one blink and they might disappear...forever.
somehow,i think i got it. pain comes from keeping the pain a secret.
but i can't do it,i won't let it out... i am stubborn like that but i just can't.
i guess,yes,it's right.. keeping the pain is making it more painful to let go.
but then,until then,i won't learn how to let go and move on,do i?
still,i can't do this. no matter how hard i tried,i kept running away.
it's been a month now,i am still searching and hopefully,insyallah soon.
i'm not tired of searching and won't be tired of it but it gets restless. )):
jeez. i can't seem to see what's my future like.. it's kinda bleak. sigh.
oh well,whatever it is,i do not want to care about it. it feels so,i don't know.
sigh. weak. weakening. and weakened now.
Two of the hardest tests in life: The patience to wait for the right moment,
and the courage to accept that you've waited for nothing.
There are so many people out there who will tell you that you can't. 
