lessons in heartbreak.
Monday, January 11, 2010 11:04 AM
forgiveness is never easy. bitterness is easy.
hatred is always easy. but forgiveness, thats a tough one.
sometimes people say things they dont mean or do things they cant take back.
sometimes we do things we cant take back. so we feed ourselves to starve the pain.
i haven't been able to update because i am seriously intense in my story. heeee.
i am already on page 11 and hey,that's a great start,don't you think so? lol.
the past few days,i had ideas & it just came strolling into my mind & i had to write!
because,if i don't,i'll probably never going to get it back. like ever. hahahahaha.
but aniways,here i am updating,just for the sake of updating.. :p
it's monday and yes,wait for it,wait for it... *GROANS* monday bluey blues! pfft.
i hate mondays,i truly hate mondays. jeeezz! but don't everyone? yes,they do.
for some part,sundays are also loathe because,it's very near to monday.. haha!
but anywise,time just flies,huh? it's 11th of january of twenty ten. uh uh. it is.....
it's 3 more days to our 42nd,but he's having in-service on his off day! TSSSKKK!
and his weekends are spend working too but only,his sunday.. sigh. what luck!
It's said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been.
But what about the man who's faced with what was,
or what may never be, or what can no longer be.
Choosing the right path is never easy,
it's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us,
but sometimes we find our way to something better.
Sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes,
our malice and our jealousy,
and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be.
And that's when we find our way to something better,
or when something better finds its way to us.
so far,my baby boy has been doing really conscientiously in school. alhamdullilah.
i hope,that it would go as far as he could.. because,i know that he's still growing.
but every night,i would look at his face and smile but at the same time,cry too.
he's growing so fast.. and it's saddening. how i wish he would be just like that,forever.
but hey,who am i kidding right? everyone grows. everyone will be able to live life.
but to me,he would always be my dearest baby boy.... the small boy,that i love.
since i have been watching gossip girl too many a time already,i'm hooked on youtube.
so far,i watched,meet the robinsons,a cinderella story. and maybe,step up later! :D
those old stories never got old. you can watch them,over and over again! hehehehe.
just like gossip girls! :p plus,i'm still on true blood's season 2. hahahahahaha!
mum need someone to accompany her to get goodie bags from little sister's school.
so i guess,the agenda for today would just be to her school,and back home,chillax.
Do you ever wanna go back? I remember being sixteen,
and everything just seemed so much easier. Would you do it differently?
I'd try and appreciate the things I took for granted.
But I think we have to go through all that stuff to get to the places we want to be.
forgiveness is never easy. bitterness is easy. 
