of fairy tales.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008 12:37 PM
Although the distance is daring,
we both know how to drive.
it's a sunny wednesday morning,isn't it?
god. how time flies. tsssssk.
i always got lost in time. check,always!
like for example that day. haaaaaaaaaa.
ohkay uh. random schit.
people have always dreamt of a fairytale ending,don't they?
like the ones they read in books,the one in movies and etc.
the ones where your infidelity been forgiven even when you're married.
the ones where you don't think you will got hold of that particular guy,
but in the end fate brought you up together.
well,who doesn't one any of those? agree?
but reality check now.
we won't be ending up like those books and movies.
that's why,they are called fairytale endings,don't they?
wouldn't life be more easier and less cruel if we were living in the same way?
people will be satisfied,less mean. and whatever that goes around like a happy end.
and what i'm trying to say is,sometimes people take things for granted.
like for example,myself. yes,i'm a selfish self-centered bitch.
who will whine and whatnots like a bitch if things don't go her way.
and who always wanted things just her way.
yes,i don't have a perfect life.
i'm not rich,not pretty and surely not satisfied enough.
but when i always whine about all these least important things,
there's someone who will always remind me of all the other more prompt.
yes,that someone is my boyfriend who i always took for granted.
he,who is the least imperfect in every way he is.
whom i always compared to with other guys.
of who,i will always be hoping to be like any other guys i dreamt of.
little did i know,that i'm blessed. blessed to have him.
despite him being an idiot,an asshole most of the times.
and when i say that i'm not as beautiful as those models,
he would tell me that i am just as beautiful in my own way.
and when i say that i wish i was filthy rich,he says that i should count my blessings.
he always reminds me of every little more important things,
like my family of which i always neglected.
but i've always took him for granted,thinking that he will always be there.
thinking that he will always love me enough even if i were to cheat or lie to him.
but no,me being me. as selfish as i can be.
i,of whom doesn't count her blessings.
i still think that i got the most outrageous family is there ever was.
i still think that my boyfriend is stupid and heartless.
but,come to think of it,i have a "fairytale" life in twist.
i have an imperfect family. but,they are always there for me.
of whom i'll be glad that i have a roof over my head.
i have a "perfect" boyfriend who always tells me this and that.
who always reminded me of all that i should be blessed with,
who doesn't care whether i have extra bulging fats bouncing off,
who even wants to accompany me to jog when he has the time.
who always follows what i asked him to do.
who never defy my words.
and yet? i think i deserve better. i should be kick.
i did a whole lot of thinking,late last night.
i shouldn't be dreaming of fairytale endings anymore than i should.
because,it can never happen. it's fantasy,for god's sake!
and because,my life is as contented enough as it should be.
and i should be grateful. grateful for all the things god has given me.
a body,though it's imperfect,it still can function well.
a mouth,even if it's not like angelina jolie's,it can speak well.
thighs and legs though equivalent to an elephant size,
it can make me walk and run perfectly,still.
a father,who still has his mistakes but willing to try.
a mother,who nags and shouts all day but i know,she loves us.
annoying sisters whom i always neglected,but still i know they love me.
an irritating little brother of whom i always had a chance to beat up,
but he will always stand by me.
and a boyfriend,despite every little silly cracks in my life,
whom throughout stays and loves me just the same.
i should be grateful,shouldn't i?
let's just say,we all should be grateful with what god has for us.
though little,at least we all have something in life.
the people who are far more worse are always grateful for any simple thing.
i think,i should start to count my blessings.
loveeeeeee;
efffffffff.
Although the distance is daring,
he,who is the least imperfect in every way he is.
