crush.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008 10:57 PM
I've never told a lie,and that makes me a liar.
I've never made a bet,but we gamble with desire.
I've never lit a match with intent to start a fire,
But recently the flames are getting out of control.
suddenly,my tuesday are fill with emotions and memories keep swinging by.
to add it all worst,i have been feeling the lowest of all feelings the whole day..
with the so many endless stocks that have to be shelve.. what more,the orders?
i have never hated christmas more than anything,i swear. i have never,in fact.
but working in the book line have make my perception of christmas to a downturn.
i fucking hate christmas. ))):
you know a feeling where you want to run away but couldn't?
because,something stopped you or just cos you are too used to that kinda feeling..
that's how i felt,every now and then. i tried,tried my very best to brush it away..
but? with no effort at all. how i wish i was immune to that kind of feelings,
like how my body is already immune to painkillers,even the stronger ones.
but somehow,someday,i know this feeling gonna kill me... if i keep staying.
You can never find the right person if you can never let go of the wrong;
but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go,
you remember why you held on for so long.
Sometimes you have to forget what you want,
and remember what you deserve.
december is coming in,faster than i could ever imagine. scary,huh?
as fast as i want christmas and stress to end abruptly,i don't want a new year.
well,i WANT a new year with better things and a better life to it... but,isn't it too soon?
to the friends you lost in between,to the times that you don't have... to everything.
2008 has been but a roller coaster ride.. but hasn't all the years been like that??
i keep wanting to turn back time.. but to times that i really wanna change...
like for example today,peter pan came in on air and THAT SONG. that particular one.
funny how instantly my thoughts ran over to you.
and as much as i'm looking forward to a new year,a fresh start with you,
doesn't mean you have to take that advantage as my weakness. you know?
because,you know that i know that i can't even bear to lift my feet and go...
but please,dear.. don't take that as my weakness for you to prone more further...
but when it's time to go,i'll go and will never have to do this thing over & over again.
what can i say? i'll talk,but no action. i keep coming back to the same place. again.
Through my tears, I could hear her saying it was all going to be okay,
and I know she believed this. But I was sure of something, too:
it's a lot easier to be lost than found. It's the reason we're always searching,
and rarely discovered-- so many locks, not enough keys.
lovee;
efff.
I've never told a lie,and that makes me a liar.
