goodbye.
Thursday, December 10, 2009 7:35 PM
Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone;
and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come.
Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.
hey everyone,i'm back from my holiday with the boy & his family. (:
it was great,stress reliever and finally,i'm back to face with reality!! jeez.
trip to cameron highlands,perak,penang,pulau pangkor & lumut.
finally,the last day was to the boy's auntie's kampung at johor.
somehow,i found peace. i find myself not stressing myself everywhere.
i am on a journey of rediscovering myself. but where do i start?
i have been feeling lost. i don't know who i am anymore. i'm not me.
i don't know where the eff that used to be went to? where is she,dear god?
i know you will guide me through this,i know you will be there.
The saddest thing in the world is,
loving someone who used to love you.
so,i guess,just a few pictures here.. i am so lazy to upload the bunch of it!
as so it seems,it can be viewed at facebook. DUH. hahaha. of course! :P
i wish i can just go back & never come back. well,that would be new york.
it is still my dream place & i know,i will get there,somehow,someday.
who says one can't dream,huh? well. we all can dream & focus on it.
i have been avoiding life. i have been avoiding everyone,to say it.
i really don't know what's wrong with me anymore nor care what is.
i just wish that i could just make it all go away but that's just wishing.
life's tough and you have to toughen it up,eff. you always do.
The closer it is to forever,
the harder it is to let go.
i may have chickenpox and it is so not cool! seriously,dude. please.
the symptoms are there. i have not been feeling well,headaches and such.
and things like pimples been popping out & i can't stop scratching!!! ugh.
i hate it. i hate it. i don't like it. my face,especially. omg,i hate the face!! ):
it's like pimples but worse,if you scratch,the scars would be there for LIFE!
i'm going to the polyclinic tomorrow & hopefully,*cross fingers*,it's not that.
i just hope it's rashes but i doubt it. god. so saddening. i loathe it,very much. ):
if it is what it is,2 weeks of imprisonment at home without going out. =/
how can i imagine life like that?!!!!! WHAT THE HELL.
There's a difference between giving up & letting go.
Giving up is sacrificing what is rightfully yours,
letting go is forgetting what was never yours.
Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; 
so,i guess,just a few pictures here.. i am so lazy to upload the bunch of it!
