live life as it is.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010 1:22 PM
Anyone who can touch you can hurt you or heal you.
Anyone who can reach you can love you or leave you.
so,i know i haven't been updating but hey,here i am right? been quite busy. right.
so much for being "busy". but yeah,been researching and also,been planning..
it's january,and soon,of course,it'll be my 21st birthday! GAHHHH!!!!!!! *runs*
i am not 21st this year.. i am rather,forever 19. hehehhehe. edward's 17,so i'm 19. (:
but... planning for 21st birthday is exhausting,takes up a lot of time & of course,$$$$$!
jeez. but hey,i turned 21 once only right? oh sorry,*coughs* i am forever 19! :p
talking about researching,i have been devastated about hearing another earthquake. :((
the signs are all there,you know.. the end of the world. it could be later,sooner.. who knows?
there's quite many predictions about when the world will actually,end. pfffftttt.
literally,Isaac Newton predicted that the world will kaput in 2060,before he died.
but in reality,we will never know won't we? it's all up to him. GOD. only he knows..
he will know when he'll take back the gift he has given us,this world,this life.
There is always one person you love who becomes that definition.
It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually.
This is the person who unknowingly sets the template,
for what you will always love about other people,
even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable.
The person who defines your understanding of love,
is not inherently different than anyone else,
and they’re often just the person you happen,
to meet the first time you really, really,
want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose.
Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.
my head is having migraines,i think? it has been pumping & thumping. it hurts. =/
aniways,forget about my head.. researching is exhausting and in a way,quite fun. :D
you learn about quite a number of things,especially when it comes to endangered species.
i have been watching national geographic channel since forever & truly,i am in love.
i am comprehensively in love with animals,and i will take anything to save them! :(
i will thoroughly do this,and keep to my word! and i'll make a difference,no matter how small.
besides that,i have a new distraction from doing my research and having a real job,
that is,playing my ipod touch! i have downloaded this new game,surviving high school,
and i am wholeheartedly obsessed and infatuated with the game. heee heee heee. :p
plus,i haven't been able to finish my story. i am stuck at page 13. mental block. lol!
sigh. i think there's so many beguilement that i hadn't been able to avoid. pfffttt.
we've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers,
heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time,
heard poets urging us to seize the day. still sometimes,
we have to see for ourselves. we have to make our own
mistakes. we have to learn our own lessons. we have
to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until
we can't anymore. until we finally understand for ourselves.
i have been watching fairytales and all i could do was just be even more sadden by it. :(
wouldn't it be easier if our lives were all like fairy tales? happy ending,no disruption.
no wars,no disasters,no racism,no criticism & such. but then again,we won't learn eh?
sigh. empire state of mind has been playing on replay ever since,and oh,party in the usa.
i know right? so bloody obsessed with new york and usa! hahahaha. you can't blame me! :p
i have been doing a lot of devising and brainstorming,and i may have come up,
with a conclusion,something that i never thought i will do,i think? but i'm still thinking.
if the other plan doesn't goes through,i'll be taking one offer which requires me,
to leave everything here,start a new life in my dream country and be a new me. ((:
on side of it,it's very tempting with great benefits that i'm sure i will gain from. heh.
i discussed with the boy about this,he said a couple of things but he's willing. oh,we'll see.
There's a difference between goodbye and letting go.
Goodbye is "I'll see you again when I'm ready to hold your hand,
and when you're ready to hold mine.
Letting go is "I'll miss your hand.
I realized its not mine to hold, and I will never hold it again."
Anyone who can touch you can hurt you or heal you. 
